♥Diaries of Caroline♥

♥Wednesday, February 11, 2009♥

Am I really the person who I am??Sometimes I wonder..I don't talk so much to my friend and am not an extrovert person.Is it because I rarely hang out with them that I slowly loose the connection? Or is it that I can't open myself completely up to them..I feel that if I do so, I might be completely hurt and probably lose them. Things might change and everything would be different..Probably I am just thinking too much and probably not. Well the only person whom I think know about my problem is probably Yong We..But because we rarely talk anymore, he would have probably forgotten about it...As for the rest of my friends, I don't know whether do they even know that I have this problem..Maybe they do and they don't say it in case it would hurt my feelings or maybe they just don't know...And if they find out, they would probably change their perception about me in a bad way..Gosh...Why am I thinking so much about this??Does it really affect my life??Actually I think it does and that is why I am doing the course that I am in now..Even last time my cousin and auntie said that it isn't so obvious but I just can't help thinking about it..This had made me feel more small inside..When I was small, I didn't care about what others thought about me..Probably that was because I thought the people around me were sent by God to watch me on Earth..Stupid eh..But as I grew older, I began to take into consideration of what others might think about me...
Well I know there would be a miracle one day that would solve my problem but when will it be..I don't know but I'll keep waiting cause God will always be there by our side no matter what..He has more important things to do first..=) As for those reading this, please don't ask me as it is personal and I don't want it to ruin our friendship..Sorry but probably you guyz will find out one day but that day is not now. I am just spilling out my feelings here to ease my thoughts..Or I'll think about it every night till I go crazy...Hope that whatever that was read here, the thought would stay here only..And thanks for everything guyz!!! Love ya lots..=) and SORRY for the times that I have been an idiot.


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